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An eye is a window.

A heart is a door.

A hand is a tool.

But the mind is a fool.

The songs in my heart keep me alive.

Unfinished, incomplete, mean so much to me.

How can my mind fathom feelings unkown?

When life gives unequal passion that drones.

I pry, and I beg fruitlessly,

to sing the emotion embedded in me.

But why do I try, for glory, for passion, for me?

I do not sing for me,

I do not sing for you,

I sing for fear of losing song.

The songs in my heart that keep me alive.

They are my belief, they are my creed,

I act upon them silently.

I dream them whole, I see the score,

I wish to trap their voice's lore.

The songs in my heart keep me alive.

With worlds that change, by waking eyes,

I always lose your giving prize.

So take not flight from mind's nest,

leave me not, my dearest fear.

Your melodious harmonies are best,

where you reside and I can hear.

But what is song?

What is real?

Is it wrong?

I cannot feel.

The songs in my heart that keep me alive.

For without song, I am not me.

Without tune, I cannot be.

Without beat, I cannot step.

So write me now, before I flee.

The songs in my heart that keep me alive.

Composition: Fail.

How often do we as human beings mentally decide we are going to accomplish something, no matter what happens.

How often do we succeed?

Yesterday I decided that I would do a little case study on myself on how many times in one day, I failed or succeeded. And it was interesting for me to know that 90% of my formal endeavors were successful, and 90% of the informal were failures. Overall I failed more than I succeeded. So basically the numbers would say that I am a failure; good to know.

Thinking back on my life I can remember many accomplishments, many failures, and a lot of things I just did for the heck of it. I can also see that some of the most simple tasks were the hardest to accomplish.

My father always told me I could achieve whatever I wanted to in life, as long as I worked hard for it.

For years my mother asked me to make my bed, and put my laundry in the laundry basket. But did I do it? Well, some of the time. I think those were some of the most difficult things I had to do. Yet when I was challenged to overcome the impossible, I was all for it. One hundred percent dedicated, willing and desiring to achieve the unattainable.

My perception of what I want in life has always been reflective of what my father taught me, that of someone working hard for something good. I know that seems vague, but so my belief has been also. For years I have been fighting over what I could accomplish in life because everything is attainable. I couldn't just choose something that I'm good at, what if that isn't what I really wanted. So the question is, "what do I want?" Who really knows? Maybe when I figure that out, my daily successes will outnumber my failures.

I am getting closer, but will I ever know?

Wish me luck

A New Beginning...

So...

I have decided to try this whole blog thing, once again.

As this is a new beginning, I might as well introduce myself. I am Tanner Layton. I am 22 years old and I am getting married in 36 days to my love, Lindsey Burnham. I attend classes at Mesa Community College where I study mostly sciences to hopefully one day become a faithful employee to the medical field. Moving on.

After taking an english class in college, and utterly hating it, I found that I actually like writing. I like putting my thoughts and ideas into word form. I like feedback and opinion on what I think and feel. I like writing what I want to write. And I like to do it informally. So what better place than a blog?

So, if you are unfortunate and end up reading this, embrace the confusion, and make sense where you believe it is. Decide for yourself what meaning is, and does for you. And think, inside, outside and all over the box.

"A New Beginning."

What comes to mind?

The dawning of a new day...

A carton of un-opened icecream...

The reset button on your computer?

A fresh canvas and paintset...

A diverse path to follow...

Bigger better goals...

A dodge viper?

The act of creativity, in even its smallest form, binds creator to creation in thought, emotion and desire. Designed in instinct, want, survival or even servitude; simply, engulfs the mundane monotony of daily ritual. In itself it powers potential, an inconcievable. For what can be in dream, can be. What therefore is, was in thought. What will be, is here now.

What is, "a new beginning."

WARNING! THIS IS INFORMATIONAL

Success: The How According to Me

I would say the most important characteristic that all successful people demonstrate is the strategy of time, which in other words I define as the ability to get the RIGHT things done. It's easy to get things done and occupy your time, but rather getting the right things done requires much more:

Focus- Focus is the cognitive process of selectively concentrating on one thing, letting the others fall away. It is the mind taking over the scattered thought process, and in a clear and vivid form focuses into a single thought. It is a withdrawal from sporadic thoughts into concentration in order to deal effectively a specified thought process.

Vision- The ability to see the end from the beginning. Imagination is a good thing! Try to imagine yourself in the following week, two weeks, three weeks, and the next month! If you can imagine it, make it come true. Catch the vision of what you want and need to achieve. See it, believe it.

Planning- The following concept has been found extremely useful.

Draw- What is the ideal image or the desired end state? Can you see it?

See- What is today's situation? What is the gap from the ideal image? Why?

Think- What specific actions must be taken to close the gap between today's situation and that of the ideal state?

Plan- What resources are needed to execute this change?


Personal Dedication- The ability to dedicate not only your time, but rather your whole self (Talents, skills, abilities, heart, might, mind and strength) to the task at hand. It is the want, which drives you to give more, in every spare second you have.
These four points lead to an understanding of the strategy of success. And the ability to determine the RIGHT THINGS to be done at a specified particular precise point in time.

This strategy can be learned but it must be earned!

The focal point of success is the understanding that success is not an accident, it's the culmination of:

Faith- Have faith that you can be successful, that you CAN make a difference in this world, and that YOU have the power to make it happen. All is possible in this world.

Confidence- It's important to act on PRINCIPLES! Study, learn and decide that your beliefs are accurate and that they are useful in personal application and the application of others. Develop the skills you need, YOU ARE IMPORTANT and have important things to contribute to this world. No effort is ever too small, small actions have great consequences. Develop opinions that you feel a passion for things you believe in, want and need. It is key that you accept disagreement and feedback without getting defensive, or the need to explain yourself. Disagree with other people and give them feedback but be influenced by other people when you see value in their point of view.

Self Awareness- Have Self-Awareness of your limitations and weakness as well as your strengths. Improve and develop skills and talents, but be UNSATISFIED with your present situation, with desires to stretch and grow. Look for new directions in which you can expand your abilities. Become Flexible and Adaptable.

Self Esteem- If you don't care about yourself, who will? No one! Self-Respect allows you to care about the aspects of what you are- mind, body and spirit. You are Important, the greatest achievements were fulfilled by people like us.
Drive- Drive is the passion that carries you where you WANT to go, and achieve the goals you set. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself to be strong and have ENERGY and STANIMA. Show ENTHUSIASM for your life and what you are doing.

Instant Creativity- The mental process involving the generation of new ideas or concepts in the moment; on the spot. By focusing on MASTERY and SELF-COMPETITION, developing SELF-MANAGEMENT, you promote a desire to BE YOURSELF, with the ability to not only utilize the knowledge you have but create instantaneously solutions/connections/opportunities/strategies/motivation/acquisitions. Be willing to take some risks providing opportunities for choice and discovery.

Personal Sacrifice- Sacrifice opens the windows of Heaven, and gives one the opportunity to give just a little more, because you can. Take leadership roles when necessary, influencing others to follow.

Courage and Strength- If you are the only one doing it, BETTER, clear the trail for the rest to follow, walk the path less traveled by, and you will NEVER regret it.

Collaborate and Learn with others- Open yourself up to others, listen to them and accept and act upon their opinions and suggestions. Give people helpful, honest feedback, and act as a positive role model for them. Cooperate and collaborate with others, be accurate with information, and communicate openly and honestly.

Respect for Others- Respect is the magic that makes cooperation possible. Develop the skills you need to respect others. This requires you to recognize the dignity of others, avoid judging them, care for and about them, and accept them as they are.

Participation- Feel and express optimism, have patience and the insight to follow the lead of other people as well as having patience with events over which you have no control. You MUST train yourself to self-commit. This basic process is the key to progression when connected with proper evaluation. Be ready and willing to be influenced when in the presence of others.

Recognition- Recognize people for their knowledge, skills, and creativity; be open to their ideas, thoughts, feelings and contributions. Recognize others needs and aspirations.

Dyslexic Creativity...

So the name of my blog is very interesting to me and not to very many other people but I thought I would give a small peak into what it means... I really enjoy art, especially abstract art. I love finding things where they aren't really there. Part of that appreciation comes from what I call my dyslexic creativity. For some reason I see things in art, especially my own art that are not really there. Now I'm not speaking of delusions or wierd things like that but it's almost as if there is someting more speaking from the heart of the artist, feeling...emotion...desire...passion... I don't know but really truly in some art THERE IS MORE... but only if you look properly... or improperly. And that's a tidsnipit into Dyslexic Creativity.

Eloquence...

I absolutely think that the hardest thing in the world for me is to make myself understood. I am constantly asking questions like, "you know what I'm sayin?" or "do I explain myself?" I think it reflects a lack of self confidence in some ways, but more I think it means that I speak too much and don't think through what I should say... but I guess my point is that I'm sorry I'm not eloquent.

A little poem I wrote...

Hero


Super Strength And Lightning Speed
Powers Of Weather Control, Regeneration And Human Flight
Ability To See In The Darkness Of Night
These Things We Call "Super"
Aren't Super To me


Fire, Ice, Wind And Water
X-Ray Vision And Mind Control
Talents Of Fighting And Never Dying
These Things We Call "Incredible"
Aren't Incredible To me


Batman And Superman
Rogue, Phoenix And Professor X
Spider Man And The Fantastic Four
We Call Them "Heroes"
But They Aren't Heroes To me


...But The Girl Who Said "Hi" To me
She's The Super Hero
She Made The Difference For Me

True value...♥♣♠

You never really know how much something means to you, until it's gone...



How unfair is that! Why can't we just see things for their true value from the start? How come I can't know beforehand what I'm going to miss? If it were different, would life be distinct? Would we really be much different?

I don't know…

…but sometimes I really miss the things I've let go, and so I ask; is there any way to get them back?

The Fallacy of Our Generation...

The more and more I seem to face life the more I come to realize that there is a belief, a reasoning of logic, which in my mind and opinion doesn't fit... So "that thing," I call the, "Fallacy of our Generation." So what is "it"...

I'll start with the evidence I see day to day...

I am a college student, and in every class I attend, information is fed to me like I'm in kindergarten. Which everyone seems to accept quite happily, that is until the professors start asking questions like, "what do you think?" or "can you please explain in your OWN words what this means to you?" One such professor is my chemistry professor, who teaches in a slightly different style which requires students to actually think, and try to find solutions on their own, and every time I leave the classroom I hear students complaining, "why can't he just tell us what we need to study?" or "why doesn't he just teach us instead of asking us to give input? I mean, this is college, we're not actually supposed to participate!" How long has information been just a click away that we have lost all sense of searching for the missing puzzle piece? I mean, what happens when one of these students goes far enough into their field of education that there aren't straight answers, or perhaps any answer at all.

Another example, different setting...

Work... work is and will always be a part of our lives, and it's essential that we know how to do our work effectively and efficiently. But to do this we have to figure out the best way to carry out our jobs. Now, how many jobs have you had where you show up and there is someone waiting for you to "train" you on all the things you need to do and how to do them? If you've had one of these jobs which I'm all sure we have, than it probably didn't pay very well. Why? Because the thinking had already been done for you! Now, imagine yourself showing up to a job and there is a person there waiting for you with a list of things to do. You take it. Read it. And the only thing that it has written on it is, "turn this company around, we're counting on you." What are you going to do! Where are you going to start? Where are all the statistics and facts of what needs to be done! Where's the textbook? What internet site do I go to for help?

Have I proved my point?

The Fallacy Of Our Generation... is that we don't "think" for ourselves...it is the mentality, the thinking, the mindset that everything should just be fed to us...that the generations and generations of our ancestors who had the ability to "look up" and dream and bring about a better life is just a base so that we can look at "the view" and say, "...well that's nice..." We as a generation have been fed knowledge...understanding...and wisdom of ages...and have in turn lost the ability to "conceptualize" to "problem solve" and to "think!"

So I ask you... What are you doing to move forward? Or are you happy living in the world how it is now?

Talents… another rant

Lately, I have seen many people who waste their talents, who really don’t give all they got when they can, including myself. I mean, come on, when you go out onto the basketball court, or the football field, the treadmill, or enter in work or class, and you give everything you got.... you feel good! You really feel like you accomplished something! BUT, when you don’t, that’s when we have regrets, that’s when we get depressed! So why can’t we just use our talents and abilities the best we can and feel good ALL the time. Well there are always outside factors, but the truth is, I believe it all comes down to self-motivation which bases in satisfying our personal needs. Its like a salesman, the most successful salesmen are those that develop the ability to create needs in other people so that they purchase the product for sale. Its a simple process, no one needs the horribly expensive girl scout cookies that pass by our front porch every year, but we buy them, because they satisfy our needs! ha ha Now, what does all this have to do with talents? If we don’t feel the need to do our best, to study hard, work hard, to develop our talents whatever they are, we aren't going to progress very far. And we are not going to be very happy, ha ha, BUT if we can learn to recognize the need behind giving all you got, in everything, no one will be able to stop you from reaching your goals! You will become self motivated and have a focus on WHAT you want to achieve, and a vision of HOW to achieve it. Every day is a struggle, every day is a battle, and every day is a mountain to scale. We can fight, conquer and climb every day, and take another step to being the best we can be. Its a lifelong task, I plan to do it, one day at a time, one step at a time, because running ill never get there, but if I'm constant, I know I’ll get there.

Ranting on... easy solutions

Lately I have been hearing a lot about "easy solutions" for life. You know things like "easy, instant success" and "fast money." Or some new idea that is going to change the world overnight, a new invention or scientific theory. Some advancement in something like Brainwave Entrainment, or hypnosis, where one simply has to listen and they change instantly through their sub consciousness. Now, I'm not trying to say that these things are bad, not at all. But for example, the United States became powerful thanks to God and inspired men with incredible vision and focus, which had "new" ideas! But, the solutions to life that they had weren't easy or new, but rather, simple. These were men were willing to live by principles, and stand for them, no matter what the cost. Men who were diligent and persistent to good causes, who lived in a time where ones word meant something and ones family name was a treasure and had great personal significance. Men like Abraham Lincoln, who found happiness in serving others while leading them at the same time, which believed in a better life and then made it happen by doing the small things that make big differences.
After analyzing the comments made about all the "shortcuts" we can make in life, I came to the conclusion that I'd rather be simple. And I prefer going back to the basics that we all know, and live by faith, diligence, trust, love, self control, etc. And forget about the trash of "getting something for nothing" and replace it with the good feelings of working hard for something, and in reaching my goals. I mean, whatever happened to writing a personal creed, to look deep down and decide what one really wants in life, giving one boundaries and limits, choosing the "path less traveled by." Writing it down and living by it, living up to our potentials.
The truth is that I'm young and I've seen too many unhappy people. The answers seem to be simple, but no one wants to accept them. Why? I don't know. Maybe it just seems too "easy" to just be a person who works and saves, who budgets and sets aside a little for a rainy day (or a drought if you're from Arizona), who shares the little they have to help one who is less fortunate. Maybe it just seems to "easy" to trust in God and dedicate oneself to His work, to believe on His words, and follow Him.
This life is meant to be good, and I don't think it's that difficult to achieve. Keep it simple, make the small sacrifices, do the small things, smile, and be a positive influence on the world and the people around you. That's my goal. Its simple and I'm stickin' to it.