Composition: Fail.

How often do we as human beings mentally decide we are going to accomplish something, no matter what happens.

How often do we succeed?

Yesterday I decided that I would do a little case study on myself on how many times in one day, I failed or succeeded. And it was interesting for me to know that 90% of my formal endeavors were successful, and 90% of the informal were failures. Overall I failed more than I succeeded. So basically the numbers would say that I am a failure; good to know.

Thinking back on my life I can remember many accomplishments, many failures, and a lot of things I just did for the heck of it. I can also see that some of the most simple tasks were the hardest to accomplish.

My father always told me I could achieve whatever I wanted to in life, as long as I worked hard for it.

For years my mother asked me to make my bed, and put my laundry in the laundry basket. But did I do it? Well, some of the time. I think those were some of the most difficult things I had to do. Yet when I was challenged to overcome the impossible, I was all for it. One hundred percent dedicated, willing and desiring to achieve the unattainable.

My perception of what I want in life has always been reflective of what my father taught me, that of someone working hard for something good. I know that seems vague, but so my belief has been also. For years I have been fighting over what I could accomplish in life because everything is attainable. I couldn't just choose something that I'm good at, what if that isn't what I really wanted. So the question is, "what do I want?" Who really knows? Maybe when I figure that out, my daily successes will outnumber my failures.

I am getting closer, but will I ever know?

Wish me luck